About the current situation

Hey everybody

As some of you might already know I have to take a lil holiday and I'm not sure if I'll be coming back. I got a brain tumor and it needs to be removed surgically. It's a pretty dangerous operation and there's is a big chance I'll die. If I manage to get out of it alive I could suffer from major amnesia so that it's possible I wouldn't be able to remember a thing about BwAv, of course, I could be a total vegetable too. If I don't do it I got a maximum of 15 years to live so the operation gives at least a distant possibility of living a bit longer.

I've had a lot of drama in my life and don't get me wrong when I say that I'm kinda tired of living. I hope none of you will have to go through the same things as I have. It feels like everything is monochrome while it used to be full of colors. It's not that bad but you can feel there is something missing. I'm willing to try this operation because I would really want to have kids one day and maybe see my grandchildren grow up. I want to believe I could be okay again someday.

I would like to use my (possibly) last days away from the computer. I got some things to do and words to say that I should have said and done a long time ago. It'll take about 3 weeks till I'm back and if there is no word from me it's pretty safe to assume that I'm gone for good.

Thanks for using the time to read this. It's been pretty great time with you guys. You still got much to live so don't worry too much about me.

Ciao